In February, I found out that I was one step closer to my ultimate career goal. I got accepted to becoming an elementary school assistant principal in the Bronx. I was elated. Then I began to think (typical type A behavior). I'll explain the back story, then circle back to the thoughts.
How Did this Happen?
Leaving the Bronx was a crucial decision for me to make. Professionally, there were some significant challenges and I was starting to lose faith in my ability to grow and be developed. So I explored options but vowed that lateral movement was not ideal. So I went to Jersey and was promised that my career goals would be factored into my development. It actually was. I was repeatedly asked about my trajectory in education and set goals directly connected to skills I would need. However, I was skeptical. I applied to Building Excellent Schools to explore founding a school of my own. My friends encouraged me to apply. I surprised myself at how well I did. I knew that I wanted to be a school leader and for a minute I thought it was going to happen. I made it to the final round and was denied. I took it as a sign that God meant for me to be in Jersey but it gave me a lot of satisfaction that I was able to handle that process and make it so far.
Time progresses and I find my way in Jersey. Literally the happiest I have been in my career. I was content. For the first time, I wasn't shopping my resume out just because. Then, I received a message on LinkedIn (admittedly I have never been into the site but randomly check it). The message invited me to apply for the position I have now. Awhile ago, I applied to this same position and was completely ignored. So if you know me, you know I was side eying the hell out this email. My response back was not ideal but real. I informed the lady that I had applied to the position before and was completely ignored. She asked me to apply and send her a message when it was complete. I interviewed for three hours. I felt that I was slaying until the final interview. When I tell you that recruiter came for my entire life! I kept composure and fought through but I didn't leave feeling as confident as I usually do. About a week later, I got the position!
Well What Now?
I've spent a lot of time being happy about this switch. However, the job starts tomorrow. Even responding that I'm an assistant principal instead of a teacher is weird. I'm nervous. I'm used to being good at what I do and being confident in that fact. The unknown scares me and leading people while experiencing these feelings is slightly offsetting. I know its beginning jitters. I have three weeks of intensive training before teacher in service begins. I'll be fine. I'll let you know how it goes.
you are going to slay! in the end of all things you are going to learn, make mistakes, slay again and make more mistakes. just learn to forgive yourself
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